Monday, December 13, 2010

Dear friends and family,

So my Middle East trip was life-changing in many different ways. While touring Galilee, a doctor (who was traveling with us) approached me and just started feeling my neck. I was a little taken aback, to say the least. She said she noticed a lump there and suggested I have it checked out when I got home. I did and it turns out I have a growth on my thyroid that is most likely cancer. So at the end of the month, I will have surgery to remove it (the lump and my thyroid). After the surgery, I will have to go through a one-time radiation treatment.

People keep telling me that of all the cancers, thyroid cancer is a great one to have. Yay? I do know that I will be fine--the prognosis of returning back to a normal life is very good. It just may be a rough couple of months followed by an off year, BUT in the end I will be fine. It is just something I need to get through.

Is it bad that the thing that I am most worried about is having a scar on my neck? I think it really speaks to my priorities, or lack of them. But come on, I have a really lovely neck. Sigh.

So, yeah. Just thought I would let you all know. It is funny cause I rarely share very personal things on my blog. I like keeping this a place that is fun, creative and light-hearted. But it seemed weird to have something like this going on in my life and pretend it is not happening on my blog. I really don't see myself talking about it too much here, but no doubt it will unavoidably pop up now and again. (As in, I see knitting myself some scar scarfs.)

As far as the blog goes, I am not going to completely disappear. But for the next little bit, I might not be as active. I know you guys understand.

Love,
Kara

57 comments:

Stacy said...

Oh friend, I'm glad you did share. I will be saying happy, healthy prayers for you. Take care of yourself and thank goodness for that weird neck feel-up.

Yaya said...

Good thoughts and prayers your way. Have a wonderful holiday season with your family and enjoy!

P.S. your neck will still be lovely!

Erin said...

You do have a beautiful neck, but that is not going to change. Love you forever sister.

Andi said...

It's good that it got noticed. I hope everything goes well for you. I'm sure your neck will look lovely even with a scar.

Melanie said...

I am with Erin-your neck will still be pretty. We love you and you will be in our prayers. Please keep us posted.

Amander said...

Miss Kara,
I'm so sorry to hear about the lump/cancer. My uncle has been dealing with thyroid cancer/problems for a couple years now, and it definitely sucks. (I'm sure everyone tells you they know someone who had this and yada yada yada, so I won't say anymore.)

I will be thinking of you often and praying for you, of course. I also feel this warrants a reuniting of me with the Hallstrom sisters, Gilmore Girls, and BR.

Love you, dear.

(P.S. Totally feel you on the scar thing. I had a lump removed from my breast this summer and I was most upset that they made such a big, high scar.)

Disentangled said...

Thank you so much for sharing...so many more positive thoughts and prayers can now come your way. I will be thinking of you often :)

Lisa said...

You poor thing! Prayers for you.

Anonymous said...

I hope surgery goes well. Best wishes for speedy recovery.

SpiderWomanKnits said...

oh kara, i am very thankful for that doctor in galilee. had you noticed anything before that?! i am also thankful that you shared this. i know it can be hard to get really 'personal' on blogs but this way i can be thinking of you and send you all sorts of lovely feelings and wishes which i will be ooxx

Kat said...

Kara, I hope everything goes well with your surgery. You will be in my thoughts. And of course we understand if you are not as active in the blogging world for a little while. Kat xo

Things to Do said...

Best wishes and thoughts and get well vibes are being sent to you. Thank you for sharing, your blog has brought me lots of smiles, so now it's time to give them back to you ten fold.

Ashley said...

You are in my thoughts and prayers Kara.

Hayley Hutchin said...

You're in my prayers!

CelticCastOn said...

Hope everything goes well with the surgery, will be thinking of you!

Nicola said...

Oh my gosh, I'm sorry that this is happening to you. While I'm tempted to say that it's lucky that that doctor spotted the lump, it's really unlucky that you've got this so young. I hope everything goes well, I'll be thinking of you.

Cusegirl1999 said...

My cousin had a growth on her thyroid, had it removed and it wasn't cancerous. The scar is healing very well, and if she hadn't pointed it out, I would never have noticed it at all.

My thoughts are with you and I hope you let us all know how you're doing.

Adam and Bri said...

Love you, Kara-Lara.

pmak said...

I am so sorry to hear but I wish you the best in surgery and the recovery. I haven't commented before but have been following along for quite a while now. I love your blog and the projects you seem to accomplish so quickly. You actually inspired me to well not knit or try embroidery but cross-stitch 4 nesting dolls that I plan to hang on my wall. I think it may take all winter as I chose a very ambitious project.

Maryse said...

Take care of yourself and let's be hopeful that it will be nothing and that your neck will heel beautifully ;-) You did a good thing to have it checked right away.

melanie said...

Solidarity Kara! I channelling lots of unicorns and rainbows and other happy thoughts your way!

Durrett Family Band said...

Kara. This sucks. So glad that you shared. I want to fly out and give you a huge hug. I love you!

Marissa said...

Jeez, Kara, you about knocked me out of my chair, the way you bluntly came out with that. You will still have a beautiful neck; far more beautiful in that it will contain a victory remembrance. Here's to strangers who are comfortable taking the risk to place hands on other strangers. I am most thankful that she did! Best wishes for a quick and uneventful surgery, and hope to see you back here convalescing and crafting in no time. Be well, my friend.

Anneliese said...

Well, I guess ifyou can't have prostate cancer that is the one to have ;-). So sorry to hear about that surprise on your trip but thank goodness for a forward doc! I'm guessing you have, but have you spoken to Sara? She seems to have bounced back beautifully. I will be thinking of you wishing you a restful, happy holiday followed by the best possible treatment. I'm sure your scarves will be gorgeous. I have a few patterns I can share with you--you may have to pick up crochet for some of my favorites! Take care!

Carolyn said...

Oh, Kara, I'm so sorry to hear this, but I'm also so thankful that the doctor spoke up and said something to you (and that you actually listened to the doctor...I know many, many people who would have ignored unsolicited medical advice). I'll be wishing you nothing but the best over the next couple of weeks. Here's to a speedy recovery (and yes, you will still have a beautiful neck!!)

Sigrid said...

wow ~ that was a trip meant to be. i am so glad this was found, and i am so glad you are taking care of it. you will be in my thoughts and i wish you well. life really can put a wrench in our plans sometimes and it is hard to see the positive, but it is there waiting for us to find it. the positivity of the blogosphere is here for you. take care!

Juli said...

I just want to wrap my arms around you and give you a big hug! You know we love you and we will be praying for you, of course. Keep us posted, okay? And you could encourage the surgeon to get creative with the incision--something in the shape of a bicycle, perhaps? Or maybe knitting needles would be easier? It's the closest you'll ever get to having a tattoo, right? ;-)
Love you, Kara!!

caknitter said...

oh Kara, I was just thinking of you today, but a lump on the back of your neck was the last thing on my mind. I will be sending good vibes and include you in my prayers every night.
I'm sure everything will go smoothly. I can't wait to see the lovely scar scarves you've knitted for yourself.
I hope you have a wonderful Christmas with all your family and friends. xoxo

cassiesperry21 said...

good luck with everything. i'll be praying for you. :)

Melissa said...

Sending lots of good thoughts your way :)

ImplausibleYarn said...

I second whoever said your neck will still be beautiful! Best wishes for a healthy recovery.

ty and megs said...

sending lots of love your way from cleveland. you've been in our thoughts and prayers and will continue to be. love you. so much.

{and i like juli's idea about the knitting needle tattoo/scar. :) somehow i think grandpa would be ok with that one.}

Steph said...

I'm so glad that doctor was travelling with you - how long, otherwise, before you might have found out?

I hope you heal well and that the story of this surgery and treatment is all you ever have to tell anyone about cancer.

On the topic of scars: Perhaps it's an excuse for some jaunty scarves until you're comfortable with it? My brother-in-law (an ENT surgeon) once operated on a rather famous gentleman who now wears cravats to hide his scar.

Caprene said...

I agree it's the one to have. It's the one I had, and most people don't even know it. Here's to your speedy recovery my friend.

Windybrook Spinner said...

Best wishes for quick healing and happy scarf knitting.

O. said...

Unless biopsy is positive for papillary cancer, the odds of having cancer in all other cases is 20%

Anonymous said...

Best wishes and stay strong as you go through the tests and procedures. Give yourself a break for a while and take care of your health. We'll be waiting here to hear how you're moving forward.

Jacey said...

I'm thinking of you. You have a lot of support from your family and this community. You are a beautiful, strong and talented woman, and this won't change that fact.

margene said...

Your attitude will be your biggest asset, as the road ahead will have big ups and downs. You have wonderful support in family and friends, which will also be an asset.
The only bit of advise I will give is to head into this journey without expectation. Take each day as it comes and use your strength and grace to get you through.
Sending prayers and good thoughts to you.

Laurel said...

you.are.so.loved.

and prayers your way, my dear. PRAYERS.

As one of my dear friends once shared with me:
“You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face… do the thing you think you cannot do.”

Eleanor Roosevelt

annahell said...

Hey Kara,

I just wanted to wish you well and that you have a speedy recovery. I've always enjoyed you and your sister's blog, but I rarely leave comments on either. I know this was hard news to hear, but you're young and healthy and I'm sure this will turn into just another interesting anecdote in six months. And hopefully you'll have loads of time off for knitting and relaxing :-)


-Anna

chancy said...

Thank goodness for that random doctor! I'll be thinking positive thoughts for you and wishing you a positive outlook in what will probably be a trying time. And think of the scar this way: Scars tell your life story. And in the end it will be a reminder of how you triumphed over adversity. Now that will be a beautiful story.

Ashley said...

Oh, Kara--I know this must be so scary, but I also know you're up to whatever challenges lie ahead. I'll be thinking good thoughts for you! Big hugs.

ali said...

We love you Kara, thanks for letting us know. You are in our prayers as well. And I have to say that I'm thankful for that doctor too, who would have thought to have that checked otherwise?

photoknitdog said...

Sending positive thoughts your way!

Kimberly Ann Petersen said...

Kara, my blog friend, I am so sorry about this news! I will keep you in my prayers and will send good thoughts your way! My great grandma had this when she was young and completely recovered from it, and I'm sure you will do the same, but I'm sure it's scary and not a fun thing to be dealing with at all! Take care and know you are in my thoughts.

Elisa M said...

I had major thyroid problems and had the radiation a few years back. (another thing we have in common!). the scar will be teeny tiny and you will have another excuse to knit some adorable scarves to cover it.
So sorry to hear this. Hoping that all goes well.

Chocolates for Breakfast said...

prayers have been going out (and up) for you non stop since we heard...we love you and know that ultimately EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY! still shaking my head at the random way you found out about this...you indeed have angels looking out after you!

Jill said...

I hope you can feel the unending number of arms around you, Kara. Add our arms to the group. We are thinking of and praying for you. I will always associate you with Rosie the Riveter. You are amazing and I am convinced you can do anything. Please keep us posted. Love you.

jane said...

Aaagh, Kara... I am so sorry. I have to say though -anyone who's read half a paragraph of your blog knows what a strong and all-round awesome person you are, and that you can do this. Plus - all your wonderful biking will mean you are in great health. Go Adeline and co! Also, you are also clearly an upbeat person who sees the good in big things and small, which is not only why we all love you, but it's also extremely useful when life hands you crap.
About the scar: let's hope it'll be invisible in no time. But let that not deter you from cowls and vntage Liberty print scarves. And definitely use lots of bio oil (or an equivalent). Tell the surgeon you are concerned about the scar - I'm sure they're always careful and attentive to good closure, but there's no harm in a reminder! Show him your embroidery so he understands you've got high standards on the stitching front.
Sending love and thoughts from across the pond.

naturallycyclingmanchester said...

Hi Kara, fellow Pashley rider!, I am so sorry to hear such drastic news, but may I say also happy to read of the positive prognosis and that in the end all will be well (I am sure of it!)... In your words you sound very calm and strong, I take my hat off to you, I have no doubt you will come out stronger for that. I'm sending you lots of love and wishes for a speedy recovery, so that you can enjoy spring rides with your Pashley and come back to this blog sharing your new adventures!

Lots of hugs from across the pond (too)...

L xoxo

Denise said...

Dear Kara,
I found your blog while looking for a bike suited to my height (almost six feet) and have enjoyed reading your posts, almost feel I know you (although I've never left a comment). I'm sending you my wishes and prayers for a quck recovery.
Love Dee

Tracy said...

Oh Kara. What news! I read your post last night and was a bit overwhelmed for you. I know you will be just fine and you have your lovely family there to support you and help you through this time. I wish I could give you a big hug. My prayers are with you. And don't worry about your lovely neck. You are so beautiful no matter what. Love you Kara! -your pixie friend, Tracy

Sarah said...

Best wishes to you and your family. You are in my prayers and don't worry about the scar, it will be a lovely scar on a lovely neck.
Sincerely Sarah

kateohkatie said...

Ohhh Kara that must be so very scary! But wow - what an amazing random encounter with the doctor. That is truly wonderful.

There's no "good" cancer, and no one is take it too lightly, but I'm so glad that you have a good prognosis, and a wonderful support system (both in Internetland and real life :-))

::massive hugs::

Meg said...

Somehow, the comment I made yesterday has not appeared...

I am so grateful for the doctor in Galilee and and also that you thought enough of the advice to get it checked out. I know that your strength and good humor will get you through this difficult time, and I will be sending you all kinds of positive, healing thoughts. Get better, friend.

shopgirl said...

I am late to see this. Holy Cow!
I am just so surprised! Good for you for getting it looked into.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!